For I have Sinned

I once had
An affair with Jesus,
When my legs were swollen
And my eyes looked like heat
Melting sidewalks.

It was kept quite hush-hush
Afraid that Hashem would find out
And no Holy Mary’s or hall-
elujahs
would save me . But his voice

Beat wildly with the
Promise of a fake honey heaven
Complete with wings that would
Be glued onto my shoulder bones.

And I suffocated under
The red light from his
Eternal flame.

I didn’t believe in
Men nailed on crosses
But I needed a cross-heaven
With twinkle angels
And winged warriors.

I kept waiting to be kissed
By fate, to be swept up
In the arms of forgiveness

And to elope with
A man who had scars on his wrists
Like my own.

But he chose
Millions of women
In white and black,

Domino nuns
With purer thighs
And glass eyes

Who worshiped
Even with
           their eyes closed.